URGH.

Yes. No.

2 words with sky-high meaning.

Eenie meenie mynie moe.

urgh. i don't know what to write. i don't even know how to start. yea, i'm emo. deal with it.

I feel like I'm in a blind alley and I'm trying to climb the stupid wall, which reaches to the sky and I can't get out.

no. don't say anything. don't ask.

It seems that every single one of them KNEW except me. Right. I thought he was my friend, for pete's sake. whatever.

Minru says I'm just plain blur. Couldn't see the truth right in front of my eyes.

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And on top of all that....

I ATE A SLICE OF CY'S CHOCOLATE BIRHTDAY CAKE.

I was looking at it, longing to eat, and actually had the self control not to eat it.

The one weakness in my self-control --- Yee Wen.

Yee Wen, who followed me around, arguing with me and urging me to EAT EAT EAT MORE. Until I gave in. URGH, YEE WEN.

I am never gonna be thin, judging from the way I'm eating. Was considering vomiting it out and tried to do so, but after a few tries I gave up, coz I was chicken.

Hey, is it my fault I'm a chicken and I'm scared of suffering huh.

When am I gonna learn?

STUPID CHOCOLATE CAKE.