b.ball = happiness :)

Actually, planned to stay back and study for 2 hours after school today....but i was so fed up with studying, I went downstairs to play basketball with jowinn.

*problem : no ball.

* basketball : happiness in the shape of a sphere.

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The Wonders of an Unpolluted Brain.

Conversation of the Day :
me. TJ.

Hey TJ, I'm just curious but have you ever liked anyone?

Yea sure! I like a lot of people in our class.

No what I mean is, have you ever had a crush?

Crushed? *looks blur and makes crushing motion with fist*

No, have you ever crushed on someone?

*still looks blur, so I try the "scientific approach" *

Have you ever been infatuated or had an obsession with a member of the opposite sex?

Oh, but actually you know, those are just irrational feelings with no grounds whatever....

.......

Shopping!

Went to 1u with wong seng and shariman.

Part of the reason I went was to continue my quest for The Perfect Jeans to go with my nice new black strappy stiletto heels!!

But I forgot the one essential point. The down side about going shopping with 2 guys is that you can't stay very long in girly shops.

And asking them to wait outside the changing room and giving their opinions on The Perfect Jeans? That's just wrong ok.

Anyway. wong seng bought a computer game code. for RM 49.90!!!

It's the kind of game where "you shoot. he dies. you win." I never get why guys like this kind of game so much. All the blood and....gore and... *shudder*

***
I ate 7 pieces of sushi today. Argh.

Quote of the Day :
Vegetables are a must on a diet. I suggest carrot cream cake, zucchini bread ad pumpkin pie with custard.
- Jim Davis -

*hah. the perfect way to diet. NOT.*

Get over it already.

i am so over him. i think.

Just when I was patting myself on the back for being over the crushing thing, he walks past.... and says hi.

and i am doomed.

this is the absolute worst time to be crushing. friends is good. friends is healthy. i will be a good girl and i will study. Get stuck to the geography book 24 / 7.

and dalila will help me become nerdy. and talk more about shoes. and shopping. It's 3 days to finals and me, dalila and yan yun are talking about shoes and clothes and guys.

I will not think about him. I will study.

oh who am i kidding.

***
Isn't it ironic that the guy u like never ever ever seldom has feelings for you ...

and the many guys who confess to you are never The One.

Thank the Lord today!

This was something I got in an email and it's really true :

I dreamt that I went to Heaven and an angel was showing me around. We walked side-by-side inside a large workroom filled with angels.

My angel guide stopped in front of the first section and said, "This is the Receiving Section. Here, all petitions to God said in prayer are received."

I looked around in this area, and it was terribly busy with so many angels sorting out petitions written on voluminous paper sheets and scraps from people all over the world.

Then we moved on down a long corridor until we reached the second section. The angel then said to me, "This is the Packaging and Delivery Section. Here, the graces and blessings the people asked for are processed and delivered to the living persons who asked for them."

I noticed again how busy it was there. There were many angels working hard at that station, since so many blessings had been requested and were being packaged for delivery to Earth.

Finally at the farthest end of the long corridor we stopped at the door of a very small station. To my great surprise, only one angel was seated there, idly doing nothing.

"This is the Acknowledgment Section," my angel friend quietly admitted to me. He seemed embarrassed.

"How is it that? There's no work going on here?" I asked.

"So sad," the angel sighed. "After people receive the blessings that they asked for, very few send back acknowledgments.

"How does one acknowledge God's blessings?" I asked.

"Simple," the angel answered. "Just say, "Thank you, Lord."

"What blessings should they acknowledge?" I asked.

"If you have food in the refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof overhead and a place to sleep ... you are richer than 75% of this world.

"If you have money in the bank, in your wallet, and spare change in a dish, you are among the top 8% of the world's wealthy.

"And if you get this on your own computer, you are part of the 1% in the world who has that opportunity."

Also ... "If you woke up this morning with more health than illness .... you are more blessed than the many who will not even survive this day.

"If you have never experienced the fear in battle, the loneliness of imprisonment, the agony of torture, orthe pangs of starvation ... you are ahead of 700 million people in the world.

"If you can attend a church meeting without the fear of harassment, arrest, torture or death ... you are envied by, and more blessed than, three billion people in the world.

"If your parents are still alive and still married you are very rare!!!

If you can hold your head up and smile, you are not the norm, you are unique to all those in doubt and despair."

I'm sorry.

Never underestimate the power of a sincere apology.

I thought the relationship, the friendship and companionship of so many years was doomed. There we were, sitting in stony silence, speaking to each other in one-syllable words.

Whoever said "The hardest words to say in life are "I'm sorry. I know I was wrong. Please forgive me," well he wasn't really right.

My greatest folly in life is anger. When I get really angry....I lose control of myself and say things which I probably don't mean in the first place. And I really regret it, like, 5 minutes later.

You know who you are.

If you are reading this....I just wanna say again, "I'm really, really sorry."

And thank you for forgiving me. I'm nothing without you.

The STWG

After weeks and weeks of dieting, I have finally reached that elusive amount of kgs. (like I'm gonna tell you what it is?)

* kgs = kilograms. the enemy word.

And today I celebrated by eating 4 chocolate chip cookies. Before I know it, I've gonna go back to that undesirable amount of kgs. (yeah, like I'm gonna tell you.)

Gotta go walk walk exercise tomorrow.

Now every F2 and F3 prefect calls me the "watermelon girl". Or as honey says, "wo de mei ren girl" (my beautiful girl). Because I eat watermelon for lunch and recess everyday haha!

I'm doing a watermelon promotion thing.
1.) good for health.
2.) juicy + sweet
3.) non-fattening.
4.) it is a FRUIT.

And best of all, it only costs RM 0.50 a packet, which contains maybe around 8 cubes of watermelon. i think. and is non-fattening.

The watermelon aunties at my school canteen are gonna be rich. Because of me. Their fave customer. :)

Fu Xuan said I look like someone from Star Trek in my baju kurung, which is huge for me. :) haha.

Now I'm the Star Trek Watermelon Girl (STWG).

Call me, beep me, if you wanna reach me.

Help Me Change.

I've not been myself lately. Actually I'm really ashamed of myself.

I've been super-emo, but PMS is not an excuse. Neither is exhaustion or exams. I've lost my temper with many people over trivial things, taken so many blessings for granted.

I've been really selfish, putting myself above others. Sometimes I really mean to fix myself, and yet I still succumb in the heat of the moment.

Lord, give me strength.

Buzz Off.

i am childish. i am immature. and therefore when i am pissed, you don't wanna come near me.

and i am pissed NOW.

Just imagine. You were invited to a party you didn't wanna go to because no one you know is going. And your bestie FORCED you to go to "enhance your social life."

I mean, what kind of reason is that? And you spend the remainder of the party sitting there talking to yourself. Staring at the wall.

You know, it's pretty amazing how interesting the wall can be. If you're lucky, you get to watch an ant crawl all the way up the wall. or maybe you might see a footprint ! Woooot. How fascinating.

I love my handphone. My lifesaver.

I need to thank CY too for coming to my rescue with jokes about Pam Anderson at the very right moment. Just what I needed. Love you CY.

I am still pissed. Let's continue with that scenario shall we?

And after that when you reproach your bestie for forcing you to attend that "socialite event", (ok more like screamed at her after tahan-ing her for so long) she defends herself by saying it was all for your own good and that you need to make more friends.

Bloody hell.

Confidence is IT.

I just read this book from the school library entitled "Conversations with The Fat Girl" by Liza Palmer.

Check out this really sweet extract :

# Upon their arrival, Kate was horrified to see that all the other little girls were wearing little black leotards and pink tights. Emily *her own daughter* on the other hand was pink from head to toe, including her tutu and sparkling wand. Kate turned to Emily, thinking that she would be humiliated and might want to go home.

"Sweetie, are you okay?" Kate asked gently.

"Yes, Mommy, I'm fine," she said. "I hope all the other girls are okay with what they're wearing."

And into class she walked, sparkling wand in the air, to greet Miss Janie. #

She is so cute. Just goes to show, if you have confidence in yourself, you have nothing to be afraid of.

In Your Face!

I am so happy to be blogging again. Wheeeee.......

I know what you are thinking. Like, what is this bimbo doing online blogging when exams are like, 3 weeks away? *panic, panic!*

I don't care. Woooot!

I can put colour on my posts, upload pics, whatever!

Too bad I can't do it anymore when I get home. (I'm in cyber right now coz my home computer is retarded, I can't find the sign in button for blogspot. Rawr.And when I CAN sign in, I can't upload pics or put colour.)

Look forward to more colour posts! Oh yea, and I'm gonna edit some of my old posts and infringe them with colour.

***
I've also started a new blog in Xanga, just to test the weather out there.

0% Stamina

heyya peeps! I'm gonna blog a lot a lot today coz I miss blogging so much!

(Note : hey if you can't see the pics or read the words on pics, please IM me.)

Just gonna blog about last Sunday. Before we went to church, mum and I got up early at around 6 and went for a trek up the hill somewhere *tee hee* to shed calories.

I was so disbelieving, like, "hey mum, are we gonna sweat at all, we're not even jogging!" To make things easier, I shall provide visual aids heh.

First, it was like this :

After about 1/2 hour.......

And later on in church during worship....or was it sermon?

Pffft.

*giggles* got caught by richard while i was trying to sneak 40 winks. Was really planning to stay back, but was so poofed, couldn't tahan and went home to sleep.

I have, like, zero stamina.

Days of Laughter

My cute Min Ru is finally Back In Action, after 5 days of absence.

I love you Min.

Now everytime I come in to class after recess, Min starts counting.

"Come in, sit down, 3, 2, 1........."

And right on the dot I start laughing. Pffft.

I'm just so glad she's back.

I miss Min Ru!

i miss minru.

(she twisted her ankle in her sleep, her SLEEP, and left me alone at school for 2 days. )

I miss min. I miss our daily *laugh till we feel like dying* sessions*. I miss her cute doraemon face with the *ahem* hair. Okay, just kidding! I miss u minru.

Hope you get well soon. Hurry up and come back, or I'll smack you!

clearing cobwebs in my brain

It's final year exams again. I can't believe it's been one year since my form 1 finals. It seems like just, well, yesterday. oh well, last month. Literally.

So many things have changed since then. Including me. And friends. I've grown really close to Minru this year and CY, and Gabe. Love you people. Oh yeah, must not forget thiru. :)

I think, character wise, I've deterioriated since last year. I used to be really wooden and hardworking, doing whatever everyone asked me to do at the first possible time. But then there was so much to do I broke down.

And after that I started taking things easy. Until now I'm downright lazy. And I've really selfish, sometimes I do things for people with a motive. When I think of it now, I feel so guilty. So egoistic. Hopefully I'll change, but it's gonna be hard.

I've been swearing a bit too, lately. Just mildly. Like David said, I really have to put a "care of my tongue and guard before my lips". Something like that, haha, I can't remember the exact wording.

But one thing I can feel happy about is that I've made some people happy this year. I feel just happy thinking about it. :) I think that everyone should do their best to spread more smiles around, laugh like crazy once in a while (like me when I catch sight of min's face), get crunk, de-stress, y'know?

crunk = *crazy and drunk*.

***

I love my nice new black strappy shiny stiletto heels from Nose!

Best of all, I even have a new evening dress to go with it! Bought it at a 70% sale, it was only RM 40+!

Now, I just have to find an occasion to wear it.

Someone hurry up, get married and invite me to your wedding dinner so I can wear my nice new black strappy shiny stiletto heels!

The Talk

Urgh, my mum wants to "discuss" Stuff with me.

I may not be able to predict the future, but any 3-year-old can tell that this is disastrous.

Whenever that happens, I get emo. And my mum is actually surprised that I DO get emo.

Excuse me, I'm not the mature, independent big sister Yuen Yuen ALL THE TIME.

I am sick of being "sweet and considerate and mature". I need to be emo sometimes.

And she's worrying about my so-called diet. And now she's asking about my church social life....and why I'm busy typing while she's talking.

Argh. Which girl actually likes having The Talk with The Mom?

I feel like I'm gonna cry. Damn.

I hate The Talk. Please don't tell me I'm gonna cry in front of my mum.

Just a Random Thought

Seems to me, life is all about security nowadays.

(Note : please bear in mind that I am not writing about anyone in particular, this is just something that came to me when I was daydreaming =)

No, not burglars. or stalkers. or whatever whatnot you're thinking of.

Emotional security just doesn't sound right either.

There's a lot of teenage mags writing stuff about cliques in school excluding other people, sticking to the status quo, etc, etc. High School Musical is a great example. And people say a lot of gossip-ey stuff about the "tight-tight cliques which no one dares to approach".

But what is that, after all, but making sure they're not left out, like those poor people who don't have their own cliques? They just wanna be "safe", to at least have some friends, sticking close together so they're never be found alone and vulnerable.

It's not that they're deliberately mean or excluding others on purpose, I guess, they just wanna be "safe". Rather than be sitting there alone like some retard.

Although retardedness can be really good for the soul sometimes :)

That is, if you HAVE a clique. Those who don't, might leave parties, or school, or church early, on the pretext you have a date. With books. Or with people, it doesn't matter either way. Just so you don't have to be caught sitting alone talking to yourself.

If you act tough and angry, or really really happy, no one's gonna suspect you're breaking up inside.

Antagonizing people can come in useful. So can smiling all the time. Depends on which is your style.

It's the oldest trick in the book. When you feel like you're gonna cry, act really angry and stomp up to your room. That way no one knows.

Then, and only then, you are "safe".

Security is bliss.

Hyper.

tra la la la.

i have decided to stop dieting. Becoz it's just not working.

And the world is a happier place.....

because of ice-cream and chickens!!

(and non-fatness.)

OH WHY ARE SOME PEOPLE BORN SO BLOODY PERFECT.

URGH.

Yes. No.

2 words with sky-high meaning.

Eenie meenie mynie moe.

urgh. i don't know what to write. i don't even know how to start. yea, i'm emo. deal with it.

I feel like I'm in a blind alley and I'm trying to climb the stupid wall, which reaches to the sky and I can't get out.

no. don't say anything. don't ask.

It seems that every single one of them KNEW except me. Right. I thought he was my friend, for pete's sake. whatever.

Minru says I'm just plain blur. Couldn't see the truth right in front of my eyes.

***

And on top of all that....

I ATE A SLICE OF CY'S CHOCOLATE BIRHTDAY CAKE.

I was looking at it, longing to eat, and actually had the self control not to eat it.

The one weakness in my self-control --- Yee Wen.

Yee Wen, who followed me around, arguing with me and urging me to EAT EAT EAT MORE. Until I gave in. URGH, YEE WEN.

I am never gonna be thin, judging from the way I'm eating. Was considering vomiting it out and tried to do so, but after a few tries I gave up, coz I was chicken.

Hey, is it my fault I'm a chicken and I'm scared of suffering huh.

When am I gonna learn?

STUPID CHOCOLATE CAKE.

Shouts.

ICE CREAM SHOULD NOT HAVE BEEN INVENTED.

Ok, made my point. Bye bye.

SO UNFAIR.

URGH. I am tripolata IRRITATED.

I have been "ikat perut-ing" like crazy, skipped meals, ate healthy. Yet all was undone in 5 seconds.

Because I saw IT.

ICE. CREAM.

When will I be able to look at ice-cream and not give in to temptation? Judging by today's situation, probably never.

I look at those slim girls with flawless skin and ARGH, feel so jealous. SO UNFAIR. They were BORN like that, for goodness sake. They didn't have to forego their fave food i.e. ice cream to get that kind of figure. Or wash their face with so many products on their bathroom sink that they can't find the stupid tap.

Whereas other people have to SUFFER to get that kind of body. And I still lost less than 5 kg. STOOPID ICE-CREAM.

But heh, Kaymin had a really good idea : Sticking 2 plasters on my fingers saying "Don't Eat", which I wrote with marker pen. They really work, coz I see "Don't Eat" everytime I eat something. heheh.

Love you Kay.

B'ball.

A MIRACLE HAS HAPPENED.

I (ALMOST) BEAT KAYMIN.

Well actually this was the first time the b'ball score was so close : 6-4! She scored two 3-pointers and I scored one 2-pointer and two 1-pointers.

Considering that our previous scores were like, 13-4, 9-2....heheh, you understand why I'm in shock. The NEXT time, kay, I will beat you. *boof*

*
Anyway. My brother is taking UPSR tomorrow. People reading this post, pls pray for him, thank you.

My brother is turning emo. Due to *ahem* raging hormones. I still remember when I was his age, I had the emotional range of a volcano, blowing up , crying, shouting, or just didn't wanna talk for hours. Ah well. It's time my bro grew up.

I just can't wait.

Ramblings.

I have sinned.

I have eaten ice-cream today. Shall have to exercise now. Darn it.
Hate exercising.

Talking about weight is depressing me. Let's talk about gin!

Isn't **pink gin** the cutest word you ever saw.

Question of the Day

Q : pink gin + blue gin = ??

Please solve the above equation. :)

A : pink gin(me) + blue gin(gabriel) = purple gin

*yum*

pink gin is good. pink gin is healthy.
pink gin makes people HAPPY!!

And the world is a happier place.....all because of pink gin!

This is such a random post.

I am hyper today.

Girl you can say that again!

Met Min Ru in school today and felt like "What a GLORIOUS day!!" Spent half-n-hour giggling about Chern Yao and watermelons. And Min Ru being Pamela Anderson.

Trust me, you don't wanna know.

And then, BOOM. IT happened. Chinese period.

Looking at the darn Chinese textbook I just wanted to go to sleep and never wake up again.

Oh yeah, went to watch Click yesterday. It was so funny!! And so sad....

Me and Stephanie used up one pack of tissue between us. I was like, omg, i'm gonna cry, where's the TISSUE!!

Guess what Chern Yao was doing when both of us were sniffling and burying our sorrows in the tissue?

Sitting there laughing and laughing until the roof might have fallen down.

Just like a guy.

Okay, better go study now. Stoopid chinese book.

Unmalaysian woot!

Congratulations yuenie, you are 56% not Malaysian.

That means you're as Malaysian as...


Guy Sebastian !

How Un-Malaysian Are You?

Urgh. Do something about your hair, why don't you?